In which I cut a bitch..
Out of my life. It was time. And really I don’t feel worse for it. I feel like a weight has lifted that I really didn’t even know was there.I’m not proud that I did it and I’m losing some really great people in the process. But for THIS one time, I’m doing this for ME. I’m finally being my own girl. Somehow with just the simple act of saying ‘I’m not going to interact with this person at all” has wiped away years of anger, rejection and hurt feelings. Those things are in the wind, just like that person. Maybe with time and distance perspective will come again and I’ll change my mind. But I’m pretty sure I’m done. I’ve gone way to long and way out of my way bending and twisting, trying to fit into a mold and now I’ve gone and broken it. I’m free.
Add a comment May 3, 2010
Keep in touch!
Have I ever said this to you? Then you already know. You will probably never hear from me again.
I seriously don’t fall off the friendship wagon on purpose. Its partly I’m not very sentimental by nature, also I don’t feel my life is so awesome that I feel the need to pick up a phone and call across three timezones to tell someone I accidently went to star.bucks twice in one day. Which I totally did one time. Didn’t even realise it until the guy at the counter said something. Figures my internal autopilot is set for the Buck.
Since graduting high school I keep in touch with exactly one person. And by keep in touch I mean he sent me a text and I replied. I think the last time we talked was May 2009. We’re super close besties! I have also considered the fact that I am not a friendly person. If I walk into a room and people notice me, its probably due to a wardrobe malfunction and I’ve got a nipple hanging out. Funny story: Thats totally how I met Steve. Ok not really, we met on the internet but thats not funny at all.
Being a military spouse there are tons of cool people I’ve met of the years. All the ones that weren’t swingers I’ve enjoyed meeting and I’d love to continue being friends with. Just don’t move out of my zip code. Seriously.
Add a comment February 19, 2010
Don’t Hold Your Breath..
Because I don’t come here often. Obviously. *ahem*
Holidays came and went. Thanksgiving was nice, low key with family. Christmas was pretty awful. My cousin’s wife died a few days before Christmas Eve, cause still unkown. He was in Iraq at the time and didn’t make it in time to say goodbye. She had just turned 30 and was looking forward to having the surgery in February. We had made up and resolved some issues and were working on our friendship but I still feel a lot of guilt about what happened in our relationship and how we can never settle things between us. The only bright spot was my nephew came for Christmas and its always so nice to see, he’s just adorable and an obvious genius. I got my keu.rig coffee maker which I totally wanted and I use the crap out of it.
Valentines Day was nice, we went and had breakfast then saw a movie the Saturday before because I had to work Sunday and didn’t want to be tired. I made steaks for dinner and they turned out SO good.
I resolve to update more. And if I don’t, well resolutions were made to be broken.
Valentines Day Steaks
2 Top Sirloins
4 Garlic Cloves chopped
Worstershire Sauce, few dashes
Olive Oil
Rosemary
S&P
Heat oven to 500 degress
marinate steaks in oil, sauce, garlic and rosemary for at least an hour, the longer the better
remove from marinade and season with S&P on both sides.
Place in very hot pan for 1 minute 30 seconds then flip over for the same amount of time
Place pan in oven for 10 minutes for medium rare steaks
Perfect Potatoes
4 Potatoes, peeled and chopped
Boursin Cheese
Milk
Boil potatoes until done then drain. Mash with Boursin cheese adding milk until the desired consistancy
Serve with steaks!
Add a comment February 15, 2010
Something new..
20 Things I believe in:
- The right to be heard
- That being a good friend just isn’t enough, you have to HAVE good friends too
- Being on time is never a bad thing
- IF wearing all black all the time makes you feel skinny and happy by all means, rock on
- My uterus, my choice
- After a certain age we all need to wear shirts with sleeves
- Red lipstick will never do you wrong
- High school was in no way practice for real life by a longshot
- Star.bucks can make any day better
- Don’t hide. Someone else might be struggling with the exact same issue and may need to hear that it WILL be ok
- Never underestimate the power of 1000 count sheets
- Dis.ney is no place for children
- After 8 pm I should be able to go to dinner or a movie without having to listen to a screaming child
- Hating people based on race, gender or sexual preference makes you a bad person
- On my birthday I get to be as lazy, assholeish and cranky as I want
- There is no point in ruining a dinner out bitching about the service, get over it and enjoy your meal
- Its not ok to not know how to prepare and cook even 1 meal, even if its just grilled cheese and fishsticks cook the shit out of it
- You don’t have to forgive everyone but its good to know when to at least move on
- Always keep around at least 1 picture of yourself that you loive, if they have to put your picture on the news at least it’ll be a good one
- Happiness really is a warm, well fed and snoring puppy
Add a comment October 2, 2009
Not Much in the Land of Very Little..
So..yeah.
Not much going on. Currently its 2 am on Monday and verra, verra drunk. Seriously.
The most I’ve done there last few days is read An Echo In the Bone. I liked it, curious where its gonna go for the next book. Not much happening on the cooking front, I was soooo good last week even lost a pound or two. Was a total fat ass over the weekend. For reals.
Most of my energy is devoted to planning a Dis.ney trip for christ.mas! YAY! A trip I wanted to take with Husband, who then was all like, I ‘m just not that into it. So I make plans to go with my mom and now Wonder Boy is all, why aren’t we going? Bitch Bitch Bitch, whine, moan, his vagina obviously aches. But I’m gonna have a sweet ass time at the Wilderness Lodge, his ass will be home having turkey sammiches while I enjoy the Concierge Level. My mom and I are totally gonna enjoy the Honeymoon Suite. Thats right. The Honeymoon Suite. So now Husband wants to go to Dis for chris.tmas next year. I love a good plan!
And now my drunkass is going to bed, I’m a little sad anyhows. To many things on my mind and none of them have an easy single answer. Joy.
Add a comment September 28, 2009
Lazy Day
The weather outside is awful, all stormy. Just makes me want to lay in bed and read with my 2 best goggies, Roxie & Lulu. It was my mother in laws birthday so we took over her gift, I think she enjoyed it. Church on Friday wasn’t awful, the Pastor who was the guest speaker was great. He kept throwing in Princess Bride references. I like a minister with a sense of humour. Almost makes me want to attend church again. Then I remember how much I HATE church culture. *Shivers* Trying to find a recipe to go along with my Homemade Hummus. I for reals make awesome Hummus. Tzaiki too! I think we’re just gonna do a few loads of laundry, I’ll cook later and watch the 2 movies we’ve got from Net.flix. Made more fish and veggie latkes for husband after church last night, he agreed we’ll def be putting that little gem in our rotation.
oh yeah and in the brand new car i’ve had for just over a year with just over 10,000 miles? Check engine light came on. Awesome.
Add a comment September 19, 2009
Best Quickie Ever!
Best quickie lunch I mean!
Husband and I are trying to eat better so I resisted the urge to have clam chowder at Pan.era today and came home and made lunch after grocery shopping.
Pan seared Tilapia & Veggie Latkes thrown together, cooked and on the table in 25 minutes. I was cooking just for me so only made 1 piece of fish and 2 latkes but with bigger pans prep and cook time will still be low.
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For Tilapia:
1 piece thawed Tilapia brushed lightly with olive oil then sprinkled with O.ld Bay
Cook in span with just a drizzle of olive oil, 3 min per side
Veggie Latkes:
1 zucchini, grated
1 small yellow squash, grated
2 small potatoes, grated ( I didn’t even peel them, didn’t make a difference at all)
chives
1 egg
1/8-1/4 c flour
1/8 c panko
1/8 c parmesan cheese
s & p
dash hot sauce
Grate veggies and set aside to drain. Soak potatoes separately in water so the starch rinses off. Drain then put all 3 veggies in a dish cloth and squeeze all the water out best as you can.
Combine all ingredients in a bowl. Start off with 1/8 c flour, adding more if its a bit too wet.
Fry until golden brown on both sides in small amount of olive oil I didn’t even use 1 tbsp
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It was awesome, I win at life again!
Add a comment September 18, 2009
What should and should not be..
It really late, I’m super tired and I just can’t force myself to go bed just yet. Listening to the i.pod. Played around with the sims for a bit. I’ve even got a load of towels in the dryer. So yeah..this is my PUBLIC blog. If you have knowledge of my other one, keep it to yourself. I joke about lighting peoples houses on fire but seriously, I’m gonna snap one day and you don’t want to be on that list. Really just stfu about it now. Moving forward. Had a decent day. Made meatloaf cupcakes for dinner with mashed potato “frosting”. Roasted squash and zucchini. Not to bad for a white girl. Husband’s friend came over for dinner and then we all went to Bas.kin Robb.ins where I ate WAY too much ice cream and promptly felt sick. Serves my fat ass right though. Tomorrow is filled with grocery shopping, and several small errands. and a church thing. Oh the joy of church I can hardly contain myself. Yeah I really dislike going. Old Boy and I know where we stand with each other, basically we still talk but have agreed to see other people. Last I heard he’s seeing a really great group of Lutherans, I hope it works out for them. I think I’m fianlly gonna go hit the hay!
Add a comment September 18, 2009
